Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Pink is my favorite store.  My clothes from there make my body look better than clothes from other stores.  This is probably something you wouldn't think that I would care about, but I think about how I look because I'm like any other teenager.  People think standing in front is important, but I'm more comfortable in the back.  Very much wish that having autism didn't mean that instead of being pretty, I always look messy because the normal things like going to the bathroom to check my appearance doesn't come easy for me.  Mom makes me look nice most mornings, but by the time I come home I'm a mess.  

Big things coming next year.  I'm heading to high school.

Being autistic and going to a regular high school is not going to be easy.  At my current school my classroom is a safe haven.  Going to a high school that may not be used to my type of autism.  Miss Parcheta earns the award as the best aide in the world.  I'm afraid I won't find someone similar in my new school.  That might be the difference between success and failure.  Basically might be luck of the draw.  Miss Parcheta might be missed too because always feel safe when she's around like she's my protector.  Being autistic has been incredibly challenging, but I've made lots more progress than most.  People are starting to believe in my ability to get my high school diploma.  Think seeing me type has unusual affect on people.  They want to become a part in my story.  


  1. Kaylie, you are beautiful, bright and definitely changing the way people view autism.

  2. Kaylie, I loved so much about this blog entry. Most everyone is nervous to go to high school, and I see why you are feeling apprehensive. However, I have no doubt that like so many other times in your life, you will rise to the occasion and meet this challenge head on. I also think it's fabulous that you've found a store that you like so much; that's important for teenage girls :-) Tell your Mom and Dad that Kathy says Hello. Looking forward to continuing to follow your journey, and thank you for sharing it!

  3. Kaylie you are awesome! I love reading your writing. Just so you know, everyone in high school feels worried about fitting in...the same way as you do (even if they don't show it!) You can do it!

  4. Hi Kaylie, I know it'll be hard, but to let you know, I am Sophie from Williamsville South, you might remember me, because I have autism too and there's a lot of things that I want to talk about.

    If I had my own blog like you, I would write down all of the things that make me happy and the things that stress me out. For example, I know that you like to watch Sesame Street and Strawberry Shortcake, which is great, as for me, I watch Boohbah mostly because I love the two characters Brother and Sister (who I adopted as my own Brother and Sister and my special friends). They make me happy when I'm sad and I have you a picture which has me, you and them on it. But what I'm most worried about is when people notice you watching Sesame Street, they'll say something like that, "Isn't that a 'little kids' video you're watching?" To me, it's the most hurtful thing to say to someone with autism. It's because whenever I watch Brother and Sister, I'm happy. I love thinking about all the great things that they do to make me happy. Do you think about all the great things your friends do to make you happy? I do. I also still play with toys because of my autism, and I feel comfort from them sometimes when I'm sad, same with my bunny, Daisy. She has autism as well and I think of her as my own personal emotional support animal. But there's another reason why I cry, which I didn't tell you, it's because as an autistic person, I feel things more intense than neurotypical people. The reason why I was looking forward to talking to you was because I wanted to tell you the challenges for me and my autism, but my teacher didn't let me because she asked, "Do you think she knows that?" To tell you the truth, no two autistic people are alike. And I feel that intense feeling when I get teased like having my toys taken away and beaten up or trying to take away Brother and Sister (Emily did that to me and I wrote a letter to her telling her to stop and now I hope she understands). So this is what it's like for me having autism. It's hard. I don't like getting upset, and I don't like people yelling at me, which is why I cover my ears at things like that. So read this comment and hopefully you'll get to understand me a bit better. You have an awesome blog!

    1. Thanks for writing me Sophie. Being autistic is getting easier now that I can communicate, giving me hope for the future. Having autism is still really hard though. The best thing about visiting South was meeting you and all the other kids. We will show the world what we are capable of. Can't wait to see you.