Sunday, November 13, 2016

Back when I was little, I didn't offer many options to my parents.  Very overwhelmed when I would try new things.  Breaks were needed often or I would meltdown.  Can you try to imagine being some sort of parent who is afraid to take their loved daughter places?  My parents frantically had to live that way because I would have screaming fits all the time.  No one could calm me down once I lost it.  

Because of much meaningful work, have changed almost completely now.  I'm able to make much better noises when we're visiting new places.  Might be because my family communicates ahead of time and lets me carry my iPhone so I can free myself from my anxiety.  This is often the case with autistics.  We want to participate big time, but our anxiety makes it impossible for some managing of our fears.  

What makes me push myself is my belief my parents will scale things back if I get too overwhelmed.  Wish that lots of other autistics managed pointing to communicate.  It can help your many fears lessen.  You have an ability to let people learn another side of you.  Amazing how little my family landed correctly when they would try to guess what I was thinking.  Landed on thinking that I was making a play for food all the time.  Managed to eat amounts I always thought were too much.  Nearly appled myself out.  Soon mean to write a blog about how I overcame my anxiety.  Maybe learning from my experience, lots of others might be able to make progress trying new things.


  1. I admire your courage, Kaylie! The strength it takes to overcome anxiety is greater than what most people experience. The benefits of persevering are the joys of learning something new and evolving. I look forward to watching you grow and learning from you. 💕 Cousin Florence

  2. Kaylie, whatever bad things happen, I will protect you and do my best to save you. Someone once did that for me, and I felt grateful. I have had many meltdowns in the past, including elementary school and middle school, and I don't want to see you having one during the high school year. I don't want to see people beat you up, or call you rude names because you're non verbal. I don't want to see people grab you or yell at you or treat you badly (or even worse, treat you with discipline). I don't want people to hate you or discriminate you or exclude you from fun things you want to participate in. My next birthday party I am planning this winter (it will be sometime in January of February 2018, which is about 6 or 7 months away). I want to invite you to my party, and if you don't show up, I might just cancel the party. I want to be with you more often once the school year starts. You are an amazing friend and writer, and I worry that you will get teased the same way I did, so I wish the best of luck for you. Hope you are having a great summer. (Paulie and Brother and Sister love you too!)