You get to hear what has ben going on in my life the past month. I've made what I would call a lot of progress. School has been going better. I'm getting more comfortable with the people there. I have worked hard to not be aggressive with anyone even if I'm frustrated.
Mom has also had some interesting things going on. She organized a workshop with Soma, who is the creator of RPM. She had to coordinate a lot. Mom did an amazing job along with her partner, Laurie. They work well together. The workshop went great. I got to work with the amazing Soma two times. She decided to see how I would do with making an attempt to write. Made me a little stressed because I don't write very often. I was totally able to do it though. I was so proud of myself. Like the idea of being able to write my thoughts in addition to typing. The amazing thing is I would be able to take tests without someone holding my keyboard.
I used to think that I was never going to be able to fit in. Wouldn't want to go places. Going another way was easier than facing the challenge of facing my fear of making a scene and embarrassing myself. Must work the hardest to remain calm when I feel stressed. That has always been a struggle for me. I was always the kid screaming and disrupting other liked kids. Some kids with autism run away, others laugh uncontrollably, I scream. I wish I could stop doing it altogether, but at least I do it a lot less. Sometimes I'm just unable to. Would love to be able to type and tell people what's wrong, but my autism just takes over and I lose the ability to type coherent thoughts. I'm sorry because I know that people want to help me, but sometimes it's just possible.
I'm basically another white kid who has been able to succeed because my parents have the resources to hire tutors and teachers to work with me. Mom really wants to help kids make progress like I have been able to. Through her nonprofit, she wants to make the sessions with RPM providers affordable for everyone. Love that she is trying to help. Hopefully they will get what they need to be able to accomplish that during their April fundraiser. If you want to donate to mom's nonprofit, you can go to their website.
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Sunday, January 14, 2018
Active Participation
I am so grateful to the people who have helped me get to where I am today.
It makes me happier than I can say that I have so many people that I can rely on.
It also makes me happy that I can add my name to that list.
Existence can be a scary place when even you yourself can't predict what you will do.
But I am learning to trust myself.
I've taken all the puzzle pieces my helpers have handed me and now I'm putting together a beautiful picture.
A beautiful life to be sure.
I am so happy to be able to put myself into it,
So happy that it has become uniquely mine.
It makes me happier than I can say that I have so many people that I can rely on.
It also makes me happy that I can add my name to that list.
Existence can be a scary place when even you yourself can't predict what you will do.
But I am learning to trust myself.
I've taken all the puzzle pieces my helpers have handed me and now I'm putting together a beautiful picture.
A beautiful life to be sure.
I am so happy to be able to put myself into it,
So happy that it has become uniquely mine.
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